| so i'm here! |
[Sep. 13th, 2005|06:09 pm] |
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i am at college and there are so many things that run through my mind all the time. one of the main things is friends.. one of my ex- friends once said to me that when you go to college all your relationships are going to change.. well i didn't believe him but now as much as a i hate to admit it, it was true. a lot of things have changed since i have been here and i even lost some of my friends. there are just so many life changing things that happen once you get to college.. that i so wasn't ready for. |
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| daaamn |
[Apr. 20th, 2005|05:56 pm] |
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this has been a really long time since i updated huh? and that last entry.... hah dont know what that was all about. well anyway... i started school and i am almost done with it! haha i am senior and i only have 12 more days left!!!! it is so exciting... i am going on mentorship and i won't have to deal with the school anymore... it is going to be a lot of fun and i can't wait to get out of here. ok well sorry to cut this short but i really dont feel like typing anymore... maybe more later. haha |
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[Aug. 21st, 2004|11:51 pm] |
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=oqww1 tonigoth as been os mawsome1 kllike omg! i really wish eevrine could feel this cousl it is so awesome! omgn i miss zach he is so hot and i wish that hewas hewre/1 ut heha a girhlf firebd lom gi wish he didint. |
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| i feel like i have had a headache for 3 days straight. |
[Aug. 4th, 2004|12:06 am] |
ugh! why wont it go away? maybe its because i am think too hard, analyzing things way to hard. i dont know... i mean i have just been thiking about my friends and everyting. and now my parents are coming down on me for God knows what reason. and i just realized that i have like no guy friends. i think that is why i like going to band so much because there are so many guys there that i know... and it is just fun cause i am around all of the people that i havent seen all summer..
i dunno i wish that i could just go through that point where i find myself... who i am becuase i really dont like being like this anymore...whatever maybe it is just a funk that i need to get over i dont know... but yeah i am going to go read and get ready for bed and for picture day tomorrow.... |
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| lots of things to talk about |
[Jul. 19th, 2004|12:21 pm] |
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| | TSL- leaving | ] |
first there is friends. i really hope that everyone has friends that they can really and trully call friends. i mean these are the people who are always there for you, never doubt you and truly are amazing. last night i had to watch one of my best friends being stabbed in the back by people that she did call her friends. i mean there are just limits that everyone should know not to cross. and when someone crosses them, esp. someone who you are supposed to trust and have the best times of your life with, its like, wtf? and you just lose trust in everything and everyone for that one moment.
Lately i have felt like i have been the mediator in all my friends relationships. between natalie and pat, jesse and mike, and melissa and james. i almost feel like i am one of the only people in the world without a boyfriend, besides amanda and courtney. but it seems like everyone is trying to hook them up, but they are just too shy. and i know for a fact that amanda could get a lot of guys because lets face it, she's hot. i mean even natalie says that. but then it makes me wonder if maybe guys do look for something other then looks because no guy has ever come up to amanda and started talking to her. that sentence really made no sense but what i am trying to say is that maybe guys like a girl who isn't shy, that maybe they arent just looking for ass anymore. i dont know what i ma saying anymore...
i just sometimes wish that everything was different, or i wonder what it would be like if everything was different. i mean what would it be like if i never moved here, never came to bainbridge, stayed in bedford. how would i be different? well i woulndt have some of the most important people in my life, like jesse for instance. me and that girl have been to hell and back, and look where we are. she is such a fucking amazing girl. and i mean it seems like she has everything. she's a manager at a store, she has a bf she has wanted for a while.... it just seems like everything is great for her. and that is great! and then there is natalie... lord knows what i would be doing without her. who else would i drive around all the time? or have to talk pat out of breaking up with her 20 times a day. and who would i go to all the concerts with? then there is amanda... we have just recently gotten closer this summer, and it is great to have another person just like you. we can talk about almost anything and it is ok, we have great conversations all the time. and melissa... she has taught me more then any other girl i know. and i am soo greatfull for that. i wish to her all the best. she always has something really thoughtfull and meaningfull to say and that is awesome.
what does this all mean? i dont know, it is just like, the events that happen in a 24 hr period can really change how you think of something and how you look at something for the rest of your life. i hope everyone who reads this gets something out of it.... not sure what, but something. |
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| it should be illegal towork if you are under 18 |
[Jun. 22nd, 2004|03:51 pm] |
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here i am, sitting at my dad's work. i am really bored but hopefully i can leave in like 10 mins. or so. and then, i have to go to my other job, at jo anns and work there! i am making a lot of money but still, it is kind of a drag. on days when i work both my jobs, i dont get to see my friends until 10,if that even. but whatever i have to keep this short and sweet in case anyone sees! |
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| please be careful! |
[Jun. 17th, 2004|12:08 pm] |
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| | nfg- ending in tragedy | ] |
yesterday i got into an accident... i am fine but i did some damage to a yard. here is my speech: please be careful and don't take life for granted. i was going extremely too fast and my life could have ended. maybe some people think that i am over exaggerating (sp?) or whatever but still.. there could have been many different circumstances then there was. there could have beens omeone in the yard mowing the lawn, someone walking on the street... a dog, a kid ANYTHING! everyone says that there is a reason for everything. well, there is! this accident has taught me to be much more careful, especially with cars, and to not take anything for granted. yeah, we are young and all we want to do is rebel and be bad and live in the moment, but everyone should do that with care. i hope that somewhere this reaches someone, because i know that i am going to start being more careful.
thanks!
~jenna |
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| june 8th! |
[Jun. 8th, 2004|06:55 pm] |
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damn, i haven't updated ina while. well, today was our last day of school! i am officially a senior! it is craziness. this year went by so frickin fast! oh, annnd i got a b on my chemistry final, which means that i get a b in the class! i am really excited. i thought that i was going to end up getting a d, but everything was better in the end.
so i am going to a bonfire tonight to burn my chemistry notes cause i am sick of them. and cause the year is over! well, i know this is short but i really dont have much totalk about... peace out. |
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| whoa so i haven't updated in a while... |
[Mar. 16th, 2004|07:47 pm] |
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| | cheerful | ] |
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| | the t.v. | ] |
how the hell is everyone?!? i am doing pretty good. i can't belive that spain is in less then 2 weeks! it is so crazy... even though it is kind of scary w/ the whole terrorist attack thing. but ahh.. and then we go an assload of snow today and i hate it! it really needs to melt.. and i got in a n accident... i got hit from behind though so it wasnt my fault. and my poor car still has to be fixed :( i miss it so much. i really wish they would fix it already!
ahh.. not much else is new... i think i am going to go watch american idol and all that jazz... leave me messages! |
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| honestly... |
[Feb. 22nd, 2004|11:12 am] |
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is it even worth it anymore? i got called a dramatic, physchotic bitch last night by the person who i THOUGHT was my best friend. maybe i am just a really passive person and i let people step all over me sometimes. i honestly don't know what to do anymore. should i put up with this crap and get over it or should i just quit and not go on? that's not what friendships are... but they're also not when people call you phsycotic bitches. so please, someone tell me what to do because i am really lost at this point. maybe i am too dramatic and maybe i do need to change... maybe this whole situation just isn't worth caring about anymore. i really dont know. |
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| it's my life... |
[Feb. 17th, 2004|05:07 pm] |
so i met this kid who looks like andrew from soco. he acts like him too.. craazy.. he is really cool though and his name is pat. he likes natalie and i think they should date. they look really cute together!
so friday is the photo thing... i am really excited to go. it should be so cool. and then saturday is winter formal... although i dont even know if i am going to go b/c i still don't have a dress. and alll this shit is going on with limos.. it kinda sucks. yeah and then brandon ... omg all this hsit. oh well i am just not gonna deal with it. |
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| just don't think about it too much... |
[Feb. 9th, 2004|10:25 pm] |
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| | i have sugarcult stuck in my head. | ] |
think think think... that is all i do lately... HS is supposed to be fun.. not all this bs and fighting... oh well i guess that tomorrow when we all talk about it it will be alll over. cause i am not dealing with this bullshit anymore. it just isn't happening.
anyway... i should really be doing my spanish rightnow.. oh welll. so andrew ims me.. it was really random but cool he is a cool guy to talk to.. ah well. too bad he has a gf. i dont think i could ever date him though :b |
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| this is crazy. |
[Jan. 28th, 2004|11:01 am] |
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2 snow days in a row... i really can't belive our shitty school is doing this... but of course i have to work both of the days.. oh well. maybe i will get sent home early or something.
ya know rachael is right. she wrote in her xanga journal that life is too short to be worrying about school and how we are only 16... and have our whole lives to live and this is crazy.. now i am going to put it into my own words. life is also too short to be worrying about what other people who don't matter think of you. i mean.. why the hell would i care what mike thinks? he is just a prick... even though one of my best friends happpens to be obsessed with him.. but whatever i guess i need to just let it all go. it is really just not worth it.
back to reality... i need to go clean.. my mom is making me. oh well. maybe i will find some things i have been looking for. enjoy your day off if you have one :p |
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[Jan. 26th, 2004|09:29 pm] |
everything they fuckin say is true. how fuckin pathetic is that? i agree with EVERY SINGLE THING. and i am going to do something about it.
goodbye. |
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| break down, fall apart. |
[Jan. 26th, 2004|08:57 pm] |
every god damn day. how much can a person handle? not this much anymore. i really wish i could start everything over. make all this useless shit go away. it really is useless and i cant deal with it anymore.
its stupid and my fault. fuck you. |
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| ahh i hate this... |
[Jan. 23rd, 2004|10:48 pm] |
i hate liking someone. mostly because i hate all the emotions that come along with it... that i do NOT have time for right now. and it really sucks (or maybe it's good?) that i have to see this kid every day, and we are forced to become better friends... (long story) i am just not the type of person who is supposed to like someone.. haha that sounds weird. i am just not supposed to feel vulnerable. i absolutely hate when i am not in control of my life and what is going on in it..
listen to me.. i sound so dumb. |
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| so i got what i really needed to get done, done! |
[Jan. 22nd, 2004|07:31 pm] |
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| | evanescence- my immortal | ] |
it has to be a miracle. and it isn't even 8 yet. damn am i good. of course is till have to write the spanish. hopefully that won't take too long because i still have to watch my big fat obnoxious fiance! that show is pretty funny. i can't wait to see the last episode.
i really want to go to the mest concert.. oh! that reminds me that i need to.. i totally forgot what i was going to say.. oh well i guess that is what happens when you leave for a while lol.. ok yeah well i am going to go get ready for bed and all that jazzzzzzzz.. ttyl! |
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| i need to get ready.. |
[Jan. 18th, 2004|01:49 pm] |
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| |  silly | ] |
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| | britney spears- toxic | ] |
amanda wants to go something tonight... and she called me and said i need to get ready in 40 min tops.. and that was 20 min ago. oh well. kelli is FINALLY online so i have to talk to her.. lol so yeah i should really go pretty soon..
so i went to a club for the first time the other night... and it was.. interesting to say the least. there were lots of ho's there.. but it was fun.. i had fun.
ok well amanda is going to kick my ass.. c-ya later. |
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| well that was fun. |
[Jan. 14th, 2004|07:54 pm] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
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| | A.F.I. the leaving song | ] |
Melissa, Courtney, Natalie and I went out to dinner tonight... the roads are HORRIBLE! DON'T GO OUT, KIDS! yeah esp. here where i live. they never plow... so yeah it's pretty sweet. NOT.
so at dinner, we were talking about tomorrow being melissa's b-day and all.. if we don't have school that would be really cool. it is finals day.. i have 2.. and yeah i don't want to study but i will anyway. it would be awesome if we didn;t have school.. and from the looks of it we wont. it is snowing really bad.. and they even made an announcement that if we don;t have school then finals will have to be tuesday when we come back.. coolness.
Tomorrow i am going to a club with cathan, court, brandon, melissa and howard. it is going to be fun as all hell. i wasn't going to go at first, but then we were talking about it and i want to go. i can't wait! i hope we don't have school.. and then CLUB!
study time, peeps. |
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| i am not tired in the least bit. |
[Jan. 11th, 2004|10:02 pm] |
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| | A.F.I. the leaving song pt. 2 | ] |
but i will be tomorrow... today has been a pretty worthless day. i really need to change my lj.. or i need someone who knows how to haha.
well this is definitley just a two line entry... talk to everyone tomorrow
i'm off like a prom dress ;) |
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